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  The walk back to his office did him good. He was beginning to think he might be able to pull himself together and accomplish something by the end of the day, when he strolled past the department store window. Santa was there, and a long line of kids were waiting for him to listen to their wish lists. A little boy was squirming in his lap.

  Something about the kid reached out and grabbed Chet by the gut. Perhaps it was the boy’s eyes, maybe it was the color of the kid’s hair, which was close to his own. It came to Chet then as unwelcome pain. If his life had been different, he might have had a son.

  That fantasy along with everything else had been destroyed years ago when he’d been brash and naive enough to believe in justice and truth. Years ago before Tom was murdered, before he hadn’t been able to save his partner.

  He forced himself to keep walking until he reached his building. His office lacked welcome, but Chet had wasted enough time already. He had work to do.

  He sorted through his mail and tossed it unopened into the garbage. Reaching over the top of his desk, he pushed the button for his answering machine. A series of impersonal beeps followed. No one wanted him, not even his clients.

  What he needed, Chet decided, was a change of scene. He should have left this stinking city years ago. Now that he thought about it, he wasn’t sure what it was that had prompted him to stay.

  His mind made up, he pulled the phone from its jack, stuck it in the bottom desk drawer, and then searched through his filing cabinet for his lease, wishing he could remember the terms.

  A knock sounded at his door.

  “It’s open,” he shouted, shuffling though his papers. He made decent money, but had never gotten around to hiring himself a secretary. He wished now that he had.

  “I’m looking for Chet Costello.”

  “You found him.” He looked up and damn near swallowed his tongue. It was Monica’s father.

  Lloyd Fischer grinned in recognition. “So it was you? I was guessing, you see. Monica didn’t give me your surname. Then again, I didn’t ask.”

  “What can I do for you, Reverend Fischer?” Chet asked crisply. He wasn’t going to put up with an interrogation. Fact was, he wasn’t up to much more of anything.

  “We’re working at the Mission House,” the older man explained, looking around the room. His eyes revealed neither approval nor disapproval, just mild curiosity.

  “What can I do for you?” Chet pressed a second time.

  The question seemed to take the reverend by surprise and he reverted his attention to Chet. “I’m not exactly sure. Would you mind if I sat down?”

  “I was just on my way out.” The last thing Chet wanted was a lengthy conversation with Monica’s father.

  “This won’t take more than a couple of minutes,” he said, and helped himself to a chair.

  The reverend was being deliberately obtuse, and Chet gritted his teeth with impatience.

  “When was the last time you saw my daughter?”

  “Tuesday.” Chet made a point of looking at his watch as if he needed to be someplace important soon. “If Monica didn’t give you my name, how’d you find me?”

  “I read your license, remember?”

  He was losing it, Chet mused. He’d forgotten the old coot had caught him coming out of the side yard that night and had asked to see his identification.

  “My daughter’s badly hurt, you know.”

  For one wild second Chet assumed Monica had been injured and the fear that seared through him burned hotter than the bullet he’d taken years earlier.

  “Life’s tough and then you die,” Chet stated unemotionally.

  The man grinned as if he easily saw through Chet’s ploy. The grin irritated Chet. “Listen, I have work to do.”

  “Monica claims you love her. Is that true?”

  “No.” The pain of the lie pricked his heart, but he ignored it. “Listen, if you’re worried about what happened between us, let me assure you nothing did. Now, if you don’t mind I’ve got an appointment.”

  “Yes, I suppose you do,” the reverend said, slowly getting to his feet. He extended his hand. “It was a pleasure meeting you, young man. It’s plain to see why Monica thinks so highly of you.”

  Chet’s chest tightened with a crippling ache as they exchanged handshakes. “You should be beating the hell out of me for having ever touched your daughter.”

  The other man’s eyes gentled as he slowly shook his head. “I was young once myself, you know, and deeply in love. Monica’s a woman and old enough to know her own heart. I’m not here to judge you or my daughter. I came out of curiosity to meet you. And thank you.”

  “Thank me?” Lloyd Fischer was offering him gratitude when Chet had expected condemnation.

  “Oh, yes, you’ve helped Monica tremendously.” The minister looked older now than he had when Chet first saw him the fateful day he’d met Monica. Weary and burdened. “If there’s ever anything I can do for you,” he continued, “please don’t hesitate to come see me.”

  “Sure,” Chet said, but a man who’d lived the life he’d lived, and done the things he had, didn’t make social calls to preachers.

  He walked Monica’s father to the door, and opened it for him, anxious for him to leave. If Lloyd Fischer stayed much longer, Chet just might start to believe in the impossible.

  “She’ll get over me,” he said.

  The older man nodded. “I suspect you’re right. In due time. She loves you, and Monica’s a good deal like her mother when it comes to love.”

  Chet hadn’t a clue what that meant and furthermore he didn’t want to know. His ladle of guilt was filled to capacity and overflowing.

  “Good-bye, Chet. I appreciate you taking the time to talk to me.” He patted Chet’s upper arm as if he were little more than a schoolboy and then ambled out of the room.

  Standing in the doorway, Chet watched as Monica’s father absently walked down the hallway, strolling past the elevator. He turned around, looking confused, when he reached the end of the hall.

  Chet shut the door, leaned against the thick white glass, and closed his eyes. He smelled of stale liquor, hadn’t shaved in two days, and as a general rule looked like shit, and this man of God had thanked him for damn near deflowering his daughter.

  There was something screwy somewhere, and the hell if Chet could figure out where.

  He was dizzy again and decided it was probably due to the fact that he hadn’t eaten since the day before. The alcohol hadn’t helped.

  After showering and fixing himself something to eat he felt better. He’d finished his scrambled eggs when the thought subtly presented itself to him. Monica was at the Mission House. Hadn’t her father said so himself?

  “No,” Chet said out loud. “I will not go down there.” He reached for his television controller, his finger poised over the Power button.

  “You’re a fool,” Chet muttered, already knowing there was no force on this earth that could keep him away.

  He had no intention of talking to her. None. The picture windows in the place gave ample opportunity to view the inside without being noticed. He’d go down, check out what her father had said, and slip away without anyone being the wiser. It was something he’d done a thousand times before as part of his job. He was good at this sort of thing.

  With purpose directing him, Chet locked up his office, and when the elevator didn’t arrive fast enough to suit him, he took the stairs.

  The mission was only a few doors away from his own building. It amazed Chet how easily he was able to find Monica in the crowd of workers. There seemed to be some sort of Christmas party going on. He spied Lloyd Fischer serving turkey with all the trimmings to a long line of derelicts.

  Monica was in another part of the room with the children. Apparently she was telling them a story. A handful of kids were sitting on the floor looking up at the book she was holding. A toddler was fidgeting in her lap, reaching for her dangly earrings.

  This was what hell must be like,
Chet decided. To stand hidden in some corner and view the woman he loved so much it defied reason, and know he would never have her. Hell was watching her hold a child in her arms, and realizing she would never hold their child.

  She was pale, Chet realized with regret, and dark circles shadowed her eyes. No wonder her father was concerned. Monica wasn’t faring any better than Chet was himself. He wanted to shake some reason into her, but that was part of his hell too. He would never touch her again.

  Coming here had not been one of his most brilliant ideas. He took a step back, and then another, and was ready to turn and walk away when Monica’s gaze suddenly, unexplainably, locked with his.

  Chet read her shock and watched the book she was holding tumble unnoticed from her fingers and fall to the floor.

  Chet’s heart faltered. He couldn’t turn and walk away. Then she’d know his game. Then she’d know he’d purposely been spying on her. He had to do something and do it fast.

  His shoes made harsh sounds against the sidewalk as he slammed into the Mission House door. He walked past the soup kitchen and moved directly to where Monica was sitting with the children. He braced his feet and glared down at her, sneering.

  “Tell your father to stay away from me,” he ordered coolly.

  Monica’s eyes widened with shock.

  Not giving her a chance to recover, he turned and walked out, leaving the door to slam in his wake.

  Jody let herself into the house that evening, same time as always. Timmy was sitting on the carpet in the family room, occupied with his video game.

  “I’m home,” she told him, walking into the kitchen.

  “Hi, Mom,” he called out. “Grandma called.”

  Jody’s blood ran cold. “Grandma Potter?”

  “Yes. She wants you to call her right away. She said—oh, darn—”

  “What did she say?” Jody asked, hoping to hide her anxiety. It was times such as this that she regretted ever having purchased Timmy the video game system.

  “Grandma said if you didn’t call her right away that she would call you.”

  Jody wasn’t up to another confrontation with Gloria.

  “Glen’s coming over for dinner,” Jody announced, watching for her son’s reaction, hoping to gain confidence in his enthusiasm to spend more time with the attorney. “I thought I’d make spaghetti.”

  “Sure. He’ll like that.” Timmy’s gaze didn’t waver from the television screen, his attention rapt.

  Inviting Glen to dinner so they could talk to Timmy together about their engagement had been Glen’s idea. Jody had immediately seen the wisdom of it, although now she wished she’d discussed the matter of her remarrying with her son much sooner.

  Jody didn’t doubt that Timmy would be thrilled. After all, this was what he wanted. His nine-year-old heart had yearned for a father, and his desire was what opened her eyes to the way she’d isolated her life.

  “You want to help me set the table?” she asked, although it was an hour or longer before they’d eat.

  “In a minute.”

  Jody rolled her eyes. She’d heard that phrase often enough to have it etched into the patio walkway.

  Seeing that she wasn’t going to get much conversation from her son, she fried the ground turkey and set the sauce to simmer. Once she’d finished, she reached for the phone and dialed her mother’s number. If ever she needed emotional support it was now.

  “Hi, Mom.”

  “Jody, how are you?”

  “All right, I guess.” She didn’t want to unburden her soul, nor could she very well announce that she’d decided to marry Glen within earshot of Timmy. But she could tell her about Gloria’s call.

  “My guess is that Gloria wants to apologize, dear,” her mother said, after Jody finished. “She was hurt and angry and said something she didn’t mean, and now she’s looking to make amends.”

  Jody was sure her mother was right, but needed confirmation before returning the call, and said as much.

  “You need to remember,” Helen continued, “you and Timmy are the only relatives she has left. I’m sure she regrets everything and would like to mend fences. The Christmas gifts you mailed probably arrived and they were the perfect excuse for her to contact you. She means well, sweetheart.”

  The doorbell sounded and Jody glanced at her watch. “That must be Glen,” she explained.

  “I do like that young man,” her mother announced, and after a quick word in parting, Jody hung up the phone.

  Her guess proved correct. Glen stood on the other side of the door, a bottle of wine in his hand and a bouquet of red rosebuds in the other. He kissed her on the cheek and handed her both.

  “How’s Timmy?” Glen asked as she arranged the roses in a crystal vase.

  “Preoccupied,” Jody whispered.

  Glen’s arm circled her waist as they returned to the kitchen. When Timmy noticed Glen had arrived, he turned off the game.

  “Hi, Glen.”

  “How’s it going, scout?”

  “All right, I guess. Mom said you were coming over for dinner.”

  “Yeah, you don’t mind, do you?”

  “Oh, no,” Timmy said, “I think it’s great, but she made spaghetti and she makes me eat it with a spoon. She’ll probably make you do the same thing.”

  “I think I can live with that, if you can.”

  “Yeah, I guess so,” Timmy said.

  “Son, Glen and I would like to have a talk with you before dinner.” Rubbing her palms together as if warding off a chill, Jody looked at Glen for assistance. They hadn’t talked about when they’d break the news to Timmy, and Jody worried their dinner would be a disaster with this hanging over their heads.

  “Sure,” Timmy said.

  The three of them sat down together in the family room. Glen was next to Jody and Timmy sat across from them. Glen reached for Jody’s hand.

  “Your mother and I talked this afternoon and decided that we like each other very much,” Glen explained.

  “I kind of guessed that you did,” Timmy said. “I saw you kissing her once.”

  “Did that trouble you?” Jody asked, watching her son for any telltale signs of jealousy. Although Timmy yearned for a father, he may not have understood that it would mean having to share his mother’s attention with someone else.

  “I don’t know why people kiss on the lips,” Timmy said. “It’s seems silly when you’re always warning me about germs, but adults seem to like it and even some kids. Rick told me he kissed a girl and it wasn’t too bad.”

  “But how do you feel about me and your mother kissing?” Glen pressed.

  Timmy frowned as if he didn’t know how to answer. “All right, I guess.”

  Glen’s hands tightened around Jody’s. She noticed for the first time that he was nervous, which was something she suspected happened only rarely. Her gaze met his and he smiled weakly.

  “Glen and I want to talk to you about us getting married,” Jody said, surprised by how shallow her voice sounded. Saying the words aloud for the first time caused her heart to pound at a fast rate, as if she were walking up a steep hill. In many ways she was and the anticipation of this new path she’d chosen suddenly felt momentous.

  “Does this mean we’d be a family?”

  Jody nodded.

  “I’d be your stepfather,” Glen explained.

  Timmy frowned at that. “But we’d still be a family?”

  “Of course we would. Isn’t that what you wanted?” Jody sensed Timmy’s uncertainty and wanted to reassure him that there was nothing on this earth that would ever change her love for him.

  “Would you have more babies like Rick’s mom?”

  Jody released her breath and looked at Glen. They hadn’t discussed the prospect of having children.

  “I’d like that very much,” Glen answered for her. “But we’ll leave the decision up to your mother.”

  “What do you think, Timmy, would you like it if Glen and I married?” Jody experienced t
he strongest need to break down and cry. It felt like a band around her chest that tightened more with each second.

  “Sure, that would be great. Glen could help me be a better pitcher and then you wouldn’t miss my dad so much. It’d be nice to be part of a real family.”

  Jody bit back the words that claimed they were already a real family, he and she together.

  “It’s settled, then,” Glen said, “your mother and I are officially engaged. You know what this means now, don’t you, Timmy? Another set of grandparents and aunts and uncles that you’ll need to meet.” He placed his arm around Jody’s shoulder and squeezed gently.

  The phone pealed just then and Jody knew in her heart that it was her mother-in-law. Bracing herself, she stood and reached for the phone.

  Her guess was accurate.

  “I want to apologize for our conversation the other night,” Gloria said, sounding calm and collected. It was almost as if the fog in her mind had cleared.

  “We both said things we regret,” Jody assured her. “This is a difficult time for us.”

  “Oh, no,” Gloria corrected, “you’re wrong, my dear. Life couldn’t be more beautiful. Christmas has always been my favorite time of year, and more so now than ever before.”

  “Mine too. Remember the year you joined Timmy and me? We wish your health was better so you could travel more.”

  “Jeff always enjoyed the holidays,” she said.

  Discussing her dead husband just then, minutes after she’d announced her engagement to another man, was more than Jody could bear.

  “Mom, there’s something you should know,” she said quickly. “Something wonderful has happened and other than Timmy you’re the first one to hear.” She didn’t mean to announce her engagement like this, but she couldn’t think of any other way to divert Gloria from speaking about Jeff.

  “You do sound excited and rightly so.”

  “I told you earlier I’d met another man.”

  Jody waited for some acknowledgment but none came. “We decided we want to be married,” Jody said, “and have set the date for January.”

  “Married!” Gloria shrieked. “But you can’t, you can’t! What about Jeff?”